the urge to want to show people my art but social media sucks. id rather blow my head off than use twitter or instagram, but thats where you have to be, i guess. make your own website, but no one will see it. is it wrong to want to be seen? i feel like half of the people who are on social media/indie web and say "dont care about views/followers" are the ones with hundreds or thousands of them. is it wrong to want to be seen? i'm just venting. i don't know where to go.
But does it say anything? Does it really need to? Does it ever? But what if you have nothing to say?
Bitter little sorrow
Knowing only suffering
Born from a cruel wish.
There is no justice in life
There is no point in anything. Humans are evil. Twisted to the very core. A species that breeds such cruelty is a shameful one to be a part of. A shitty species that enjoys suffering. Humans are a bunch of evil, abusive torturers. Sick fucks. Let this world die and let the animals take over it. We have perverted the circle of life. At least the predators don't torture their prey and upload it online before they eat it. What a fucked up world. And it's only going to get worse from here. It's been going downhill ever since the invention of the wheel. Even before. I wish I was never born.
i'll always be the one on the outside, looking in. i'll always be the one left out. but it doesn't matter, this is just my life now, and it has been my life for a long time, i don't know why i'm not used to it yet. i guess i'm just clinging onto this sense of false hope that there are people that want me around. i should've learned this lesson a long time ago, maybe then it'd hurt less.
Finally, the synopsis for my story "ENDLESS SKY, DARK SORROW" has debuted. If you want to read it, please click the title image at the top of my website! In the future, I plan to have another page with the synopsis, as well as character introductions and biographies. thanks for taking the time to read it.
There's no place for me anywhere but here, and it's very lonely.
I can only sit back and wonder: is there anything I can do at all? But there's never been anything that I could do. I sit there powerless as everyone and everything around me suffered. There was nothing I could do, I was just a kid dealing with things far beyond my control. The only thing I could do was be there. And when you cried about things I didn't understand I could only listen. But eventually I did understand. I learned about a lot of things that I shouldn't have. I tried my best to listen. I couldn't be sad, because you both already were. I had to be on your side, when no one else was. And as I got older I understood why no one else was on your side but me.
"What lies buried in the reflection of me?
Cracked mask and dead eyes betray
gnawing emptiness beneath."
There's only a limited amount of projects that a single person can accomplish in their lives. I plan on cashing in very soon.
I haven't been around, but I've started work on a new project. A kinetic visual novel about a stalker and the one he obsesses over. Hopefully I can actually finish something and share it with you.
The void is eternal. I shout into it and my voice doesn't return. Alone, ever loving, all-encompassing cold.
What is there to say that hasn't been said already. Let me fade away into the nothingness and obscurity. There's no point to anything.
I've basically been working nonstop on my website and not doing much else. Making a changelog for every single change would be too much work.
I made a button, it kinda sucks but whatever lol. You can see it on my links page. I'm still working on the ESDS synopsis page. I've never really talked about it publically until now. There's a more page, but nothing is there yet. It's kind of just there if I need it in the future... I might not even use it. In the future I'd like to add character pages and bios, as well as a potential sims section for my legacy? Who knows what the future holds.
Also, there's a new story.
Thanks for reading :3
Web page is finally up and running... I've added 2025 sections for art and writing. 2024 and older sections soon to come. I also plan on having a sketchbook/traditional art section. It'll be much easier since I actually date my traditional art. It's kind of a hassle to look for correct dates digitally since I never name or keep track of anything... But hopefully it'll be easier from now on.
Soon, I'll make OC pages, especially for Ash, as well as an ENDLESS SKY, DARK SORROW page. I could've waited, but I'm impatient. To no one's surprise.
Thanks for reading.